Thursday, May 7, 2009

The Feedback

I am sooo happy that I have received so many nice emails and comments about the show!  Surprisingly, I haven't gotten any "hater mail" and everyone is SO nice in what they write to me!  

For the most part, everyone is saying that I am fine the way I am, but if getting implants will make me happier, then do it.  That is exactly the point!!!  It's my life, my body, and my decision.  I am really glad that people see that.

Aside from these comments, I have also received a lot of advice from women who went through the same thing as I am, and women asking me for advice on how to handle it!  

All around, I am most happy to hear that people are proud of me that I have taken what A LOT of women think, and made it public.  Some people, mostly guys, just don't understand that having small boobs is a really hard thing to cope with.  It's not always about having the perfect body, most of the time, it's really about feeling feminine!  

Thank you to everyone who has written to me!  And most of all, thank you for your support!  It means so much to me!  And it makes me realize even more, that I did a really great thing, by being on the show, and sharing my story with the world!

Monday, May 4, 2009

The First Update!

I would like to start by saying that I have never felt so accomplished in my life.  Being on True Life: I Don't Like My Small Breasts was an amazing experience.  It changed the way I look at life, and I think I have changed for the better!

Filming the show was a lot of work.  It was a shit load of hours or constantly being on camera, and it got a little annoying, having to repeat things.  But I really don't have a lot to complain about.  Overall it was really fun!  And I am sure the shooters loved when I burped... haha because I was miced-up and every sound that came from my mouth was blaring in her ears.  Oopsy.  Sorry about that!

A lot of things happened that didn't make it to the show.  In the early days of filming, I took a trip to a crazy store called Harry's Occult Store.  My friend, Jes, and I went there to try to get some more herbs to help my boobs grow.  Well... O man, this place was crazy.  There was a guy who was a psychic, and he told the future by listening to spirits.  And then there was a woman who gave me only one real piece of advice... to read three affirmations to myself 10 times each, every night before I went to sleep.  She said (an really believed) that if I kept telling myself that my boobs would grow, that they would... well... grow!  ummm yea... TRIED THAT, and look what good that did me. o well

Even though there were some crazy things that happened during the filming, I really enjoyed all of it!  My main goal, aside from wanting to express my need for bigger breasts, was to reach women who can relate to my story.  Since the show first aired, I received so many emails from girls who have the same exact story as me, and they were really touched by the show.  That really means the world to me.  There are so many people in the world, with body image issues, and I think it's important for everyone to know that it really is an emotional inner struggle, that haunts you ALL THE TIME.  Not liking something about your body, is not a small thing, it really is tough.  And it's a lot to take in, and consider.  

Personally, I am extremely happy with my decision to get implants, and I know that this is not an option that everyone would choose.  In the show, I decided to get the surgery in the second to last scene.  In "real" time, the show filming took about 4 months, and it wasn't until the middle of the 3rd month that I came to the decision.  I was SOO against plastic surgery my whole life, and it is amazing how I reached that point where I felt it was the only REAL option I had.  All in all, every one's personal story is a little different, and I am not saying that getting implants is the "right" thing to do.  It was just the best thing for ME!

I was a little upset that MTV didn't allude to the name of my company.  It is Pure Bliss Entertainment.  You can see our page at www.myspace.com/pureblissdancers  We don't only provide go-go dancers to nightclubs, we also have a wide variety of models and performers, and we even have choreographed performances for large events!  If you are interested in booking out beautiful girls and sexy guys, email us your event details to 2PureBliss@gmail.com

OK guys, I have a lot of work to do.  I am happy to start this blog, so I can update everyone all at once!  Feel free to comment or email me any personal comments or questions!